The so-called 'Standards'.

is pretty much empty in school these days.
my freaking class ain't that crazy no more...
maybe is the exam that slowing the happenings in school lately.

EST !!! my favourite period..
mainly we don't have to freaking study in the class...
teacher always just sends us to the library to so called 'self revise'...
haha what a total bull.

anyways, i bumped into some of the science students at there.
we talked i mean i talked...
they are pretty nice i guess.
but then Mark ( some smart guy in school ) came in ...
overhearing Ivan saying that he regretted not joining the art stream...
Mark went on saying, ' what ?! art stream ? you would join that...'
he went on saying some shit bout art students and science students...
are like heaven and earth..
ohh, please ...
what do you think you are ???
An Angel ?!!

I mean, why does most of the people tend to think that science students are more...
are more... better than the arts students..
i mean this is all freaking bull.
i'm not particularly an art student or a science student but i do know alot of them (arts)..
and i hang tight with them...
Since the most of the chinese students in the school label me as an freaking outcast..
haha im actually glad...
i don't have to stand for most of their bullshits...
i mean why you guys so freaking judging ?
why ?
Is it because we ain't smart enough ?
Our GPA ain't up to your freaking standards ?
Or is it the fact we can't remember the freaking periodic table ?.

we are still freaking humans ...
aren't you suppose to be smart enough to see that ?
C'mon wake up !!!
Do you really think that you are more better than us ?

Cause what i see in my class and many other arts class...
we are all treating each other like family..
we don't compare grades, we help each other to improve grades.
we don't get jealous if someone gets the 1st place, we are always happy for them...
we don't hang in cliques, we hang as one...
i mean we even eat in the same freaking table in canteen...
27 students 1 table.

So tell me, are you really better than us ???
are you standing in a higher stage then us ?
wake up people ...
we shouldn't be comparing when we should be helping ...

feeling so much better !!



not in place.

i need to let it go.
let go of all the complication.
let go of all the anger.
let go of all the heartaches.
let go of all the unwanted thoughts.
a clear mind is what i need.

maybe then i can get my shit together.
maybe then i can get my life together.



the best club ever.

the best club ever
next week jon ?



Death of a Superhero, Anthony McCarten

Bert, Dar, Zham and me went to the library today.
Yes, i repeat...
we went to the library today, KL's one. :)
is not that hard to believe ehh...

So anyways, i found a novel.
a pretty descent one ...

Death of a Superhero, Anthony McCarten
is very nice, funny, and moving.

Anyways, i took the initiative to copy a part of the book into a small paper...
i thought it would be nice to posted it on the blog...
before that, the book is about some trouble sex maniac cancer kid and this devoted doctor's story...

this was the part where the kid try to kill himself on the bridge.
i copied it by hand.

Say goodbye, world, to a freak, to someone who didn't even have his shit together enough to reach his 16th birthday, to a loser in every department but who's going out in style saying au revior and sayonara and seeya' around to all the untrod pathways and unseen futures, to all the un-unfastened bras and unkissed girls, farewell to the unlearnt lessons and the unperformed mistakes and a hearty fuck off to all the torturous medical practices and humiliations, and finally so long to the entire human jamboree that will barely register the absence of one more hundred pound of flesh wrapped around a soul.

Act one, Death of a superhero written by Anthony McCarten

pretty emoish eh ???
but it was really a fun book.
tell me if you see in it in any bookstores yah readers and friends.
other than a great book.
it was fun in the library.
i didn't finish the book of course..
but i'm planning too.
i'm going to the KL library again with bert tomorrow, wanna come ?



Strawberry Flavoured.

I got tagged by a fruit !!! strawberry.

If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?

prob, just not talk... cause i find it useless...

What will your dream wedding be like?

something small yet beautiful.
Ohhh John Mayer to play on that tooo.

On your wedding day, what would you like to see?

me and the bride. the closet of friends. the pastor of course [ nanti kang x jalan ].

Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?

There is no fun if you knew everything.

What's your ideal lover like?

not sure. :)

If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?

nothing. what can i do ? ]
wait only...
infact im waiting. :(

Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?

nothing. :)

How do you see yourself in 10 years time?

event planner / newly husband to the love of my life /

Who are currently the most important people to you?


Would you rather be rich and single or married but poor?

haha... both tempting...

What's the first thing you do every morning?

Open My Eyes.

Would you give all in a relationship?


If you fall in love with 2 people simultaneously, who would you pick?

i've no idea.
no one ?

What type of friends do you like?
Friends who:

Those who act as themselves

What type of friends do you dislike?

Two-faced !!!

Are you a virgin?

Definitely yes.

Have you ever lied to your parents?


What did you lie about?

I told my mom i has not been eating lemang for a long time so tht he could get me one.But i actually just had lemang that afternoon itself. ;p

Currently, are you having any crush on anyone?

YES. :)

Hint about him / her?

Female. ;p

Do you think the guy / girl knows?


What phrases you usually say when something unexpected happens?

Chicken Head

What annoys you the most?

Bapa Ayams

What is your current obssesion?

Novels and Dramas

Who do you short text the most these days?

nt sure. i text alooot...

Who do you miss alot now?

Brenda !!!!

Which secondary school friend you miss the most right now?

Brenda !!!!

Who do you idolise now?

John Mayer...

Best girl friends?

You all should know by heart !

Best boy friends?

You all should know by heart !

Biggest fear?


Favourite hang out place?

mamak. ;p

If you were to go out with a group of friends, who will you choose?

The guys and my classmates. [ The craziest people are FUN ]

Made any new friends recently?

sadly no...

What kind of mood are you in most of the time?


Do you like the person who tagged you?

Yeah, i do. who wouldn't rightt ??? is strawberry

I tag:

-Red Bean
- the Cows
- ayam
- YK



Waiting on the world to change ??? Think twice.

Me and all my friends
We're all misunderstood
They say we stand for nothing and
There's no way we ever could

Now we see everything that's going wrong
With the world and those who lead it
We just feel like we don't have the means
To rise above and beat it

So we keep waiting
Waiting on the world to change
We keep on waiting
Waiting on the world to change

It's hard to beat the system
When we're standing at a distance
So we keep waiting
Waiting on the world to change

Now if we had the power
To bring our neighbors home from war
They would have never missed a Christmas
No more ribbons on their door
And when you trust your television
What you get is what you got
Cause when they own the information, oh
They can bend it all they want

That's why we're waiting
Waiting on the world to change
We keep on waiting
Waiting on the world to change

It's not that we don't care,
We just know that the fight ain't fair
So we keep on waiting
Waiting on the world to change

And we're still waiting
Waiting on the world to change
We keep on waiting waiting on the world to change
One day our generation
Is gonna rule the population
So we keep on waiting
Waiting on the world to change

We keep on waiting
Waiting on the world to change

  • WAR

Still waiting for the world to change ???
Still waiting for someone who will step out and shine the light to the world ???
While your waiting...
An estimated 153 thousand people die a year....
Near to thousand getting rape, murder, cheated and much more a day...
Still waiting ???
Still waiting for the someone ???
No one will stand up if all are sitting and waiting for the world to change.

So, why not you stand up and stop waiting on the world to change...

No offense to JM, still love your songs.



my saturday. =(

my Saturday...
visited a orphanage called 'tengku bairah'...
the kids there are full with energy wehhh....
and emotion...
they couldn't cry and be mad over small things like; no time to draw, or journal...
but i could blame them for their actions...
i mean... they never had a chance to learn or see an example from anyone before...

im not blaming those parents who is not in this world anymore.
but those...
assholes and retarts !!!
how could those 'parents' left them there just like that?.
is not fair ... you made them so fragile...
and their future may just break anytime...
ohhh you poopees. screw you guys chicken heads.
wow. that felt better. ;p

i met this kid called PUTRA.
wanted to take a photo of him...
but they wouldn't let me do so...
he was kind, active, and cheerful but weak...
he was always let ppl bully.
ahhh... sadcase...
he is soo nice...
he wants to be a dentist and a drawer at the same time.
easy to say his hobby reading... COMIC BOOK !!!! ;p
hahaha... cute kid....
hope he can archive his goals in the future.
hahaha putra the 'comic book dentist'

Putra drew something for me...
:) / :(
i was touched.
he told me to keep it..
im gonna post it for the whole world kid ! ;p

nice lehh ???

anyways, thats about all.
other than SPM ... theres really nothing much...
so till then ppl...

ohhhhh wait....
a musical.
venue: SIBKL
time: 5-7 pm
come ppl...



Just A Nice Guy. Ohhh so sweet. =)




ahh i got it of youtube.
so nice...
is like a mini movie.
i like the girl, amy. i think she is cute.
i really hope this doesnt related to me wehh.
but yeah, im not a nice guy anyway. ;p



Courtesy of Jonathan Chin . read the reply.

Saturday, October 4, 2008

becoming the bull!!
i just can't stop laughin bout Shou's 'wonderful' idea of losing weight..
he says he wanns join MMA somethin lik UFC in M'sia..
oh yea.. he says he plan to join some local rugby team too..
i mean of all the people.. Shou the gay boy??!

that's the most 'ganas' picture i can find.. but still u don't look half as intimidating as Tana Umaga..

just can't imagine Shou losing that chubby belly of his...

anyway... don't get me wrong... i'm not saying u can't do it...
it's just that... i don't wanna trade a cheerful fat gay boy for an angry steroid addict wrestler...
so Shou.. is this gonna be sweet or sour times?? lol...


dear jon,

all have to say is...
btw i wouldnt change.
is just my physical appearence.
i promise.

but thanks for the post.
it may be mean...
but yeah ...
i was kind of 'touched' by your bullshitting.
dont try to visualize me crying la.
because im not.
but yeah.
thanks, my friend.
opps no... not friend...
thanks, my brother.