Welcome to the suck.

A story: A man fires a rifle for many years, and he goes to war. And afterward he turns the rifle in at the armory, and he believes he's finished with the rifle. But no matter what else he might do with his hands, love a woman, build a house, change his son's diaper; his hands remember the rifle.

its a beauty...



8days 7 nights.

hey guys, been away for a week now...
haha i'm finally back home !!! whee~
but its a bit quiet now...
its just me and the comp...

haha, anyways...
i spent 4 days in BALI 1st..
i was AMAZING !!!
i spent so much money...
actually not much...
but yeah, i got myself alottt of stuff...
overall it was pretty funn, beautiful and cheap !!!
haha... i also sat on a very expensive funn fast water ride called FLYING FISH...
haha.. i was flying like superman... for real !!!
anyways...i just post the pictures...
i'm tooo tired to type. ;p

my granpaa, my mom, and , me...

my mom and me... some volcano mountain lahhh...
me, chu luei and grace... hahahuey wen candid !!! she looks superrr funnay...

haha sarung!!!!
my mom took this... so beautifull...
haha... me with the cheapest place on earth... haha///
more me...

thats about bali...

supper funnn lahhhh
Ps SAM was amazing...
ppl says he looks like me...
but i say NOOOO !!! i look better . ;p
haha sorry sorry..
i was group leader again...
haha but i didnt do much...
it was all rach !!! [ claps to her ]
haha neways...
i'm tooo lazy to blog nowadays///

happy birthday jesus !!!you rock !!!!



Slowing down.

its been awhile people...
sorry sorry, haha ive been going out since monday ...
ahaha... non stop...
from futsal to pool
from pool to overnights...
from overnights to moviess...
from movies to another overnight...
from overnight to mamaking...

thats bout it...
haha.. im going to new JJ later..
going out... AGAIN...

Ohh yeahhh...
i got me some freaking nerdy cool glasses...




the cage is opened...
haha... wings are flapping.
im a free man...
about time..
went out with bak,zat and zim...
we watched some crazy ass racist show
' Lakeview terrace'
something like that...
boring and funny.

full blood rush...
loud engine...
heart pumping..
its the new drug man...
bakrul is crazy ass driver...
but is fun...
ever race in the middle of a road with bunch of other cars ???
try his...

i wanna go again...




try imagine life without this...
treasure it...



Tagging. Its fun...

1. Who are you?


2. Who is more important to you?


3. How often do you think of committing suicide?

hahaha... funny lahhh.

4. Do you think you have enough confidence?

Boleh2.... haha...

5. How many babies you want?

3... 2 boys 1 girl

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?

what if i say... NOOO!!!

7. What is your goal for this year ?

Muay Thai...

Rugby... ( already done)

8. Do you believe in eternity love?

Yeah... =)

9. What's a perfect boyfriend like to you?

Huh ? im NOT GAY!!

10. What feeling do you love most?

Being around happiness..

11. What are the requirements you wish from the other half?

Speak more than 3 language..

12. Is there anything you wanna tell the people you hate ?

I love you ?

14. What does flying means to you?


15. What do you crave for the most currently?


16. Who's hotter?Chace Crawford or Kevin Peake?


haha im NOT GAY !!!

17. Describe the person who tagged you in 5 words.

gigi besi.
sooner or later taller than the sister.

Peeps, keep your heads up. I'm gonna shoot you. :P

Amir Sadollah




Details in the Fabric.

Calm down
Deep breaths
And get yourself dressed instead
Of running around
And pulling all your threads and
Breaking yourself up

If it's a broken part, replace it
But, if it's a broken arm then brace it
If it's a broken heart then face it

And hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
Hold your own
Know your own name
And go your own way

And everything will be fine
Everything will be fine

Hang on
Help is on the way
Stay strong
I'm doing everything

Hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
Hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way

And everything, everything will be fine

Are the details in the fabric
Are the things that make you panic
Are your thoughts results of static cling?

Are the things that make you blow
Hell, no reason, go on and scream
If you're shocked it's just the fault
Of faulty manufacturing.

Yeah everything will be fine
Everything in no time at all

Hold your own
And know your name
And go your own way

Are the details in the fabric (Hold your own, know your name)
Are the things that make you panic
Are your thoughts results of static cling? (Go your own way)

Are the details in the fabric (Hold your own, know your name)
Are the things that make you panic (Go your own way)
Is it Mother Nature's sewing machine?

Are the things that make you blow (Hold your own, know your name)
Hell no reason go on and scream
If you’re shocked it's just the fault (Go your own way)
Of faulty manufacturing

Everything will be fine
Everything in no time at all
Hearts will hold



Running back in time.

hey, thought of just updating my life a little.

anyways, i,ve been feeling happy !!!
i've officially finished 7 papers of SPM !!!
only two more to goo...
can yhou believe my last day of exams is DEC 1...
and i will not be having exams for the next 10 days....
how dumb.... could they just make the exams on this week ???
make my life easier...

other than that, i just got a call from me dad... hahaa
he says that i can goo...
for the rugby...
probably starting next month...
every tues and thurs...
i've have no idea how to go there.
freaking far...
but yeah... im sooo up for it !!!

i got bashed...
birthday bashed...
there like red marks behind me back...
arhhh freaking stingsssss...
i bet they must be alot haters...
but yeah guys, thanks for the bash...
love it...

thats about all...
wow, is pretty sad...
i used to be more funnn....
maybe, after DEC 1...



14+11+91 = 17.

a year older.
thanks for the wishes, guys.
love ya !



DEAR, ;)))))))

Dear (the last person who left a comment on your blog).

I don't really know how to tell you this, but ___1___.I think I realized it when ___2______3___ and I saw you ___4___ ___5___. I'm sure you're ___6___ enough to understand ___7___. I'm returning ___8___ to you, but I'll keep ___9___ as a memory. You should also know that I ___10___ ___11___.___12___.
-Your name-

P/S: You are so lifeless, ___13___, -The name of the person that tagged you-.

1. What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I'll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn't match
Grey - You're a pervert
Yellow - I'm selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You're a loser
Other - I'm in love with your sister

2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December - When I changed tennis shoes

3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kebab - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women's clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
None of the above - With George Bush and his wife

4. What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive out

5. What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflé
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My penpal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy-statue
Other - The crazy monk

6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs - Man
O.C. - Emotional
One Tree Hill - Open
Heroes - Frostbitten
Lost - Scarred
Simpsons - Cowardly
The news - Mongolic
American Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Senile
Top Model - Middle-class
None of the above - Ashamed

7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful I've felt
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - Santa doesn't exist
Angry - That yThat Sour pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we're cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this
Nervous - The middle-east
Worried - That your Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex-change
Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Overjoyous - That I'm open
Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks

8. What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your ring
Yellow - Your love letters
Red - Your Darth Vader
Black - Your tame stone
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures from LA
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your contact book
Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs
Purple - Your old lottery coupons
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your memories from the military service

9. The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your photo
C/D - The oil stocks
E/F - Your neighbour Martin
G/H - My virginity
I/J - The results of your blood-sample
K/L - Your left ear
M/N - Your suicide note
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X - David's tricot outfits
Y/Z - Your grades from college

10. The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Always will remember
C/D - Never will forget
E/F - Always wanted to break
G/H - Never openly mocked
I/J - Always have felt dirty before
K/L - Will tell the authorities about
M/N - Told in my confession today about
O/P - Was interviewed by the Times about
Q/R - Told my psychiatrist about
S/T - Get sick when I think of
U/V - Always will try to forget
W/X - Am better off without
Y/Z - Never liked

11. What do you prefer to drink?
Water- Our friendship
Beer - Senility
Soft drink - A new life as a clone
Soda - The incarnation as an eskimo
Milk - The apartment building
Wine - Cocaine abuse
Cider - A passionate interest for mice
Juice - Oprah Winfrey imitations
Mineral water - Embarrassing rash
Hot chocolate - Eggplant-fetishism
Whisky - To ruin the second world war
Other - To hate the Boston Celtics

12. To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand - Warm regards
USA - Best regards
England - Good luck on your short-term leave from jail
Spain - Go and drown yourself
China - Disgusting regards
Germany - With ease
Japan - Go burn
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
Australia - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt - Fuck off now
France - In pain
Other - Greetings to your freaky family

13. What is your favorite activities when hanging out with mates?
Gathering for drinks - Ugly pig
Foosball - Silly duck
Shopping - French kisser
Dulging for food - Cranky banana
Movies - Smelly armpits
Snacks - Horny wolf
Snooker - Tiny nipples
Bowling - Sexy grandmother
Outdoor activities - Vain pot
Having a long talk - Nose plucker
Taking pictures - Dumb bitch
Other - Burn yourself

I don't really know how to tell you this, but I'll join the monastery. I think I realized it on the When your dog ran amok With George Bush and his wife, and I saw you sit on my father.I'm sure you're Open enough to understand That santa doesnt exist. I'm returning the pictures from LA to you, but I'll keep Your collection of butterflies as a memory. You should also know that I was Always have felt dirty before about oprah winfrey imitations . . Good luck on your short-term leave from jail

P/S: You are so lifeless, nose plucker,samantha sito...

haha it is funny....

i tagg...


Bittersweet Ending.

the end of my freaking high school days.

i never had the VI vs Johannian thingi is my mind...
after 5 years i don't know why we all are doing this.
i may not have that...
but i wake up every morning, well not every morning.
i open my eyes im going to stjohns.
hahah not for studies....
haha but for you crazy lil ass.
my classmates from 5k this post is dedicated to you people.

  1. Abdullah Nizar - The next pm of freaking Malaysia... I remember the times where you skipped class with me, talk crap in class with me.... everything man... i hope... i know you will have a bright future...
  2. Ahmad Nadhir- White boy a.k.a Nasi Lemak + French Fries .... Haha I will remember you... the times... we skipped school and end up in Tata's house.... will remember the craziness and funn times we had... Nevertheless, bring the white boy spirit in you out.... hahah GOOD LUCK...
  3. Arizan-Homie, i love you. we argue sometimes.. hahah but it always the small things. like your calculator, the mopped floor... hahaha but yeah man ... you've been a wonderfull friend. im sorry for all the things ive done wrong. maybe sometime in the future we argue again yeah ?.
  4. Bakrul Ameen- Black Hyena. I had alooottt of crazy times with together.... and i will remember it... the times in ANNEXE the free drinks... the times where you kicked my ass in PES 09.... the times where we make funnn of other people... the times we shoot each other with toy gun in the class like hooligans... the times were great... and it will be better .... no matter where we end up... Good Luck !!!
  5. Clement Soong - so lou shuffler. haha man i knew you from the start.... hahah you've been great. with all the crazy stuff we did. skipping school, arguing among each other... i willl definitely remember the time that i made you cry... haha sorry la... it was just a joke... Anyways good luck in the future.... WORK FOR IT.
  6. David Heng - The self proclaim CUBER. hahah man you been amzing trough out the years. Im sorry of all the stuff that i lost... like your cable...hahah sorry. you been amazingly blur but not as blur as blur. hahah anyways, you dont need luck... all the best CUBER. go beat the record.
  7. Fawwaz Marzuq - Bajet Rambut Jay Chou. hahah man... i love you too. i will remember the time tht i fool you saying that this form 6 girl was my sis for 6 months, my leg tattoo that was proclaim permenant, and i was korean for a whole freaking year... HAHHAHA... dont worry its all under the name FUNNN !!! haha good luck... ROCK ON !!!
  8. Ikhwan - Bambang. sorry lah every time i call your father's name... terbiasa babe.hahaha 'my gay partner'.. i will remember the times that you almost kiss me, the times you almost rape me hahha... you will rock... just dont be a pimp man... i swear... i'll kill you... haha GOOD LUCK GAY BOY 101.
  9. Irfan - Phan... hahaha KAMBATE KAMBATE KOARA !!! hahaha thank you ... for introducing to me one of the greatest sport on earth RUGBY...i will remember the times where played for the school... the 'medal' [notice no 's'] that we won.... i will remember the times we train... the times we showered !!! good luck... see you in the field next year ... promise to smash your head....
  10. Logesh - POWER !!! hahaha the bull of the class...maybe we can fight next time... professionally.... hahaha thanks for all the tips bout MMA ... you rock my socks off man... you always have a place in my heart. good luck.
  11. AXFA - blur no.2. hahha gile lah bang...hahah will remember the times that you took the ee cumings poem, the PES moment, the makaning moments and so many more... you've been more than a great classmate to me... i love you man.... good luck.
  12. Elmie- i didn't see you today... how could you ?! =( anyways... youve been marvellous trough the days in the LRT where we talk and talk and talk and talk...hahah we just love to talk eh ???? miss you ... youve been really trully a great asskicking fren...ahahha... GOOD LUCK....
  13. Midi- Emo Fans...hahhah i wanna say sorry for everything that ive done wrong... you maybe annoying sometimes... but yeah man... anyhow you've been a great fren tooo.. you will be someday the greatest rockstar ever live... btw... you have skills man... GOOD LUCK...
  14. Alif- the MALAY...ahaha all the racial slur... hahah i remember it... thanks for being there in class hyping up the motions... hahah thanks for the dramas and funnn you gave to the class... mayb someday you be an artist... i'll buy your album or talkshow... i promise ;p
  15. Armaan- Jambu / belon / market / james buuuu... haha i was on the phone with hazim just now... he gave me all that...hahah... anyways... we fight ... we argue... i found out that your emo as fob or some shitt like that... anyways... you still are my friend no matter what okay... ohhh, favour can u ask your uncle to put me in the 1st batch... im rushing in to college...hahha
  16. Amirul - Milo... hahah just because of your name you like to drink milo ??? bodoh sial... anyways haha the most lazy most cunning most retarded class monitor i ever had... hahaha cheers man... will remeber the football moments... the crazy class time... the crazy lunch ... buying gifts for the teachers... hahah is all good to treasure... hahah ... good luck !!
  17. Farhan... i wanna say sorry to you man... for these past 2 years.. i didnt talk to you alot.. i mean we do... but yeah... we just dont connect eh ??? anyways... hahaha you rock ... with the sej and bm... i promise if i see you on the streets i get you a drink ... non alcoholic ... dont worry . ;p . good luck.
  18. Hazim - damm man, i think your the closet in the class.... yeah you are actually... mayb is your friendly ass kick attitude... get it off im suppose to have it... ahhah anyways... this two years.... you've been more than a friend to me... a great friend.... dont think gayness okay ??? haha will remember the movies we watch [ of course, we watch with others oso ] , the times you whack for no freaking reason... we laughed , we eat, we talked, we played, we conquer death together [ bakrul's car]. we your sepet tease towards me everytime... i only can wish you the best of luck... and mayb your eyes we go small evry time you age !!! hahah see you around... i know we will. GOOD LUCK !!!
  19. Izzat- ahhhh, you better be in the same freaking college with me eh !!! i will screw you upsidedown if you arent !!!hahaha anyways, youve been marvelous. your kind. your stylish. your freindly. and you have a big heart. you are one of the closet i hang with too... you rock and you always will !!! i love you... haha dont get it wrong... hahaha GOOD LUCK !!!!
  20. Raja - Raja yg x aci. sial lahhh you tiap2 hari ponteng je tau... nk lepak puunnn x boleh... hahha apa2 kita kawan... u rock... hahaha next ade mas bwk lahhh i riding sikit... i punnn nk belajar.... siall.... good luck weh !!!!
  21. H***** - H . hahah i follow the rule... haha no full name for you... haha dont worry i won't forget... hahaha blur ass you've been the crazy blur ass ever with all you bong thingi... hahha... we had times that no will ever have... hahaha ... see ya around in hartamas next time !!! kiss my arse !!!
  22. Nicholas - Phili... watch me screw you up.... ehhh, you ni chunnn lahhh. i skn igt semua hal2 kita buat sama2. makan BBQ. makan mee LEMBU. i akn igt u dlm hati dgn teriklhas... hahaha love you man you rock ! wanna noe what was that man, go learn some freaking BM for once. ;p
  23. Nik- haha scene kid ! haahaha ;p. anyways you rock tooo. the times we crap like shit bout some random stuffs. the times you asked random question as if it was the live tagging. hahaha. and the effing time you make me panic like shit... dude i swear my phone... crap ... dammm you lahhhhhhhhhhhhh... ;p ... good luck !!! all the best, retard....
  24. Siddhi - CD/DVD. Man, all i can say about you is... ROCK ON !!! you've been one of the best indian friends that i ever had... hahah... will remeber the RAMEN bands that you freakinglishly like. or should i say love !!! hahah enjoying the music... anyways, good luck !!! you rock man... '
  25. Shou-yi, the best. ;p
  26. Tengku Harezzzzz... SASAU je tau... haha man you and your slipknot craze... hahah love your ass to death... the rugby times... the song times... the akward jamming sessions.... the crazy combos that you and nik have... will be deeply sole in my heart... You rock man...try living a sober life...hahah .,.. good luck in that !!!
  27. Zain Indra Kesuma - INDON ... hahah rilek wehhh, you mmg kwn yg baik... lahhh klu next time mmg xleh jmpa lagi... i akn miss u kau kau... dgn pagi/ptg uuu. dgn prgi yg gile tuuuu. dgn bajet joe jonas tuuu... mmg lahhh i rindu... apa2 kita kwn di hati... good luck !!!

27 of us...
1 family...
my family...
you guys will be rmbred...
forever and always.'



Filling it up.

' Cal, its been 3 years since that happen. Why... No, What can i do to make you forget it ???' , Star said.

Cal looked into her eyes and with a calm cold voice said ' Don't bother, its already tattooed it my head, F*ck off Star'

' Your an ass, Cal. '

Star wiped her tears and rushed out the room.
And whats left of the old room was him and his ready to go boxes.

Silence broke, John came rushing in.

'Dude, you ticked her real bad this time man.'
'You mofo, you know why i had to do this.'
' To do what ? Break her heart ?'
' I thought I explained it to you already. So, if your here for another fresh recap. Well you can F off cause I ain't in the mood.'

John looked at Cal.
He shook his head and continue saying, ' You know what, Star was right. Your an ass. A real big one. The worst part is, she still loves you..'

John slammed the door on his way out.
Leaving Cal and his boxes once again in silence.

Tears slowing ran down his face.
And said softly to himself.

'I love you too...'



3, 2, 1, Go ?

the drive is not kicked in yet...

its near...
but i don't feel it...

“There is no such thing as bravery; only degrees of fear.” John Wainwright



The so-called 'Standards'.

is pretty much empty in school these days.
my freaking class ain't that crazy no more...
maybe is the exam that slowing the happenings in school lately.

EST !!! my favourite period..
mainly we don't have to freaking study in the class...
teacher always just sends us to the library to so called 'self revise'...
haha what a total bull.

anyways, i bumped into some of the science students at there.
we talked i mean i talked...
they are pretty nice i guess.
but then Mark ( some smart guy in school ) came in ...
overhearing Ivan saying that he regretted not joining the art stream...
Mark went on saying, ' what ?! art stream ? you would join that...'
he went on saying some shit bout art students and science students...
are like heaven and earth..
ohh, please ...
what do you think you are ???
An Angel ?!!

I mean, why does most of the people tend to think that science students are more...
are more... better than the arts students..
i mean this is all freaking bull.
i'm not particularly an art student or a science student but i do know alot of them (arts)..
and i hang tight with them...
Since the most of the chinese students in the school label me as an freaking outcast..
haha im actually glad...
i don't have to stand for most of their bullshits...
i mean why you guys so freaking judging ?
why ?
Is it because we ain't smart enough ?
Our GPA ain't up to your freaking standards ?
Or is it the fact we can't remember the freaking periodic table ?.

we are still freaking humans ...
aren't you suppose to be smart enough to see that ?
C'mon wake up !!!
Do you really think that you are more better than us ?

Cause what i see in my class and many other arts class...
we are all treating each other like family..
we don't compare grades, we help each other to improve grades.
we don't get jealous if someone gets the 1st place, we are always happy for them...
we don't hang in cliques, we hang as one...
i mean we even eat in the same freaking table in canteen...
27 students 1 table.

So tell me, are you really better than us ???
are you standing in a higher stage then us ?
wake up people ...
we shouldn't be comparing when we should be helping ...

feeling so much better !!



not in place.

i need to let it go.
let go of all the complication.
let go of all the anger.
let go of all the heartaches.
let go of all the unwanted thoughts.
a clear mind is what i need.

maybe then i can get my shit together.
maybe then i can get my life together.



the best club ever.

the best club ever
next week jon ?



Death of a Superhero, Anthony McCarten

Bert, Dar, Zham and me went to the library today.
Yes, i repeat...
we went to the library today, KL's one. :)
is not that hard to believe ehh...

So anyways, i found a novel.
a pretty descent one ...

Death of a Superhero, Anthony McCarten
is very nice, funny, and moving.

Anyways, i took the initiative to copy a part of the book into a small paper...
i thought it would be nice to posted it on the blog...
before that, the book is about some trouble sex maniac cancer kid and this devoted doctor's story...

this was the part where the kid try to kill himself on the bridge.
i copied it by hand.

Say goodbye, world, to a freak, to someone who didn't even have his shit together enough to reach his 16th birthday, to a loser in every department but who's going out in style saying au revior and sayonara and seeya' around to all the untrod pathways and unseen futures, to all the un-unfastened bras and unkissed girls, farewell to the unlearnt lessons and the unperformed mistakes and a hearty fuck off to all the torturous medical practices and humiliations, and finally so long to the entire human jamboree that will barely register the absence of one more hundred pound of flesh wrapped around a soul.

Act one, Death of a superhero written by Anthony McCarten

pretty emoish eh ???
but it was really a fun book.
tell me if you see in it in any bookstores yah readers and friends.
other than a great book.
it was fun in the library.
i didn't finish the book of course..
but i'm planning too.
i'm going to the KL library again with bert tomorrow, wanna come ?



Strawberry Flavoured.

I got tagged by a fruit !!! strawberry.

If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?

prob, just not talk... cause i find it useless...

What will your dream wedding be like?

something small yet beautiful.
Ohhh John Mayer to play on that tooo.

On your wedding day, what would you like to see?

me and the bride. the closet of friends. the pastor of course [ nanti kang x jalan ].

Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?

There is no fun if you knew everything.

What's your ideal lover like?

not sure. :)

If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?

nothing. what can i do ? ]
wait only...
infact im waiting. :(

Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?

nothing. :)

How do you see yourself in 10 years time?

event planner / newly husband to the love of my life /

Who are currently the most important people to you?


Would you rather be rich and single or married but poor?

haha... both tempting...

What's the first thing you do every morning?

Open My Eyes.

Would you give all in a relationship?


If you fall in love with 2 people simultaneously, who would you pick?

i've no idea.
no one ?

What type of friends do you like?
Friends who:

Those who act as themselves

What type of friends do you dislike?

Two-faced !!!

Are you a virgin?

Definitely yes.

Have you ever lied to your parents?


What did you lie about?

I told my mom i has not been eating lemang for a long time so tht he could get me one.But i actually just had lemang that afternoon itself. ;p

Currently, are you having any crush on anyone?

YES. :)

Hint about him / her?

Female. ;p

Do you think the guy / girl knows?


What phrases you usually say when something unexpected happens?

Chicken Head

What annoys you the most?

Bapa Ayams

What is your current obssesion?

Novels and Dramas

Who do you short text the most these days?

nt sure. i text alooot...

Who do you miss alot now?

Brenda !!!!

Which secondary school friend you miss the most right now?

Brenda !!!!

Who do you idolise now?

John Mayer...

Best girl friends?

You all should know by heart !

Best boy friends?

You all should know by heart !

Biggest fear?


Favourite hang out place?

mamak. ;p

If you were to go out with a group of friends, who will you choose?

The guys and my classmates. [ The craziest people are FUN ]

Made any new friends recently?

sadly no...

What kind of mood are you in most of the time?


Do you like the person who tagged you?

Yeah, i do. who wouldn't rightt ??? is strawberry

I tag:

-Red Bean
- the Cows
- ayam
- YK



Waiting on the world to change ??? Think twice.

Me and all my friends
We're all misunderstood
They say we stand for nothing and
There's no way we ever could

Now we see everything that's going wrong
With the world and those who lead it
We just feel like we don't have the means
To rise above and beat it

So we keep waiting
Waiting on the world to change
We keep on waiting
Waiting on the world to change

It's hard to beat the system
When we're standing at a distance
So we keep waiting
Waiting on the world to change

Now if we had the power
To bring our neighbors home from war
They would have never missed a Christmas
No more ribbons on their door
And when you trust your television
What you get is what you got
Cause when they own the information, oh
They can bend it all they want

That's why we're waiting
Waiting on the world to change
We keep on waiting
Waiting on the world to change

It's not that we don't care,
We just know that the fight ain't fair
So we keep on waiting
Waiting on the world to change

And we're still waiting
Waiting on the world to change
We keep on waiting waiting on the world to change
One day our generation
Is gonna rule the population
So we keep on waiting
Waiting on the world to change

We keep on waiting
Waiting on the world to change

  • WAR

Still waiting for the world to change ???
Still waiting for someone who will step out and shine the light to the world ???
While your waiting...
An estimated 153 thousand people die a year....
Near to thousand getting rape, murder, cheated and much more a day...
Still waiting ???
Still waiting for the someone ???
No one will stand up if all are sitting and waiting for the world to change.

So, why not you stand up and stop waiting on the world to change...

No offense to JM, still love your songs.



my saturday. =(

my Saturday...
visited a orphanage called 'tengku bairah'...
the kids there are full with energy wehhh....
and emotion...
they couldn't cry and be mad over small things like; no time to draw, or journal...
but i could blame them for their actions...
i mean... they never had a chance to learn or see an example from anyone before...

im not blaming those parents who is not in this world anymore.
but those...
assholes and retarts !!!
how could those 'parents' left them there just like that?.
is not fair ... you made them so fragile...
and their future may just break anytime...
ohhh you poopees. screw you guys chicken heads.
wow. that felt better. ;p

i met this kid called PUTRA.
wanted to take a photo of him...
but they wouldn't let me do so...
he was kind, active, and cheerful but weak...
he was always let ppl bully.
ahhh... sadcase...
he is soo nice...
he wants to be a dentist and a drawer at the same time.
easy to say his hobby reading... COMIC BOOK !!!! ;p
hahaha... cute kid....
hope he can archive his goals in the future.
hahaha putra the 'comic book dentist'

Putra drew something for me...
:) / :(
i was touched.
he told me to keep it..
im gonna post it for the whole world kid ! ;p

nice lehh ???

anyways, thats about all.
other than SPM ... theres really nothing much...
so till then ppl...

ohhhhh wait....
a musical.
venue: SIBKL
time: 5-7 pm
come ppl...



Just A Nice Guy. Ohhh so sweet. =)




ahh i got it of youtube.
so nice...
is like a mini movie.
i like the girl, amy. i think she is cute.
i really hope this doesnt related to me wehh.
but yeah, im not a nice guy anyway. ;p



Courtesy of Jonathan Chin . read the reply.

Saturday, October 4, 2008

becoming the bull!!
i just can't stop laughin bout Shou's 'wonderful' idea of losing weight..
he says he wanns join MMA somethin lik UFC in M'sia..
oh yea.. he says he plan to join some local rugby team too..
i mean of all the people.. Shou the gay boy??!

that's the most 'ganas' picture i can find.. but still u don't look half as intimidating as Tana Umaga..

just can't imagine Shou losing that chubby belly of his...

anyway... don't get me wrong... i'm not saying u can't do it...
it's just that... i don't wanna trade a cheerful fat gay boy for an angry steroid addict wrestler...
so Shou.. is this gonna be sweet or sour times?? lol...


dear jon,

all have to say is...
btw i wouldnt change.
is just my physical appearence.
i promise.

but thanks for the post.
it may be mean...
but yeah ...
i was kind of 'touched' by your bullshitting.
dont try to visualize me crying la.
because im not.
but yeah.
thanks, my friend.
opps no... not friend...
thanks, my brother.


RSC Rugby and MMA. Deal Then.

i've got to start training noww..
no more slackies boy...
im joining cheras MMA center after SPM...

And most importantly...
i need to get a spot in RSC Rugby team.
or at least their bloody training.
hahaha i know they are not as good as the Cobras.
but the dalmatians will rise one day boys...

so gear up shou yi.
no more slackies.
run FAT BOY run !!!




i carry your heart with me

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go,my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

-ee cummings

i just got it off from the movie 'In Her Shoes'
isn't it just sooo beautiful...
i'll update later laaa.
no mood.




A - Axfa.
B - Bakrul.
C - Chanette
D - Debbie.
E - Emilyn
F - Felix
G - Gan Leon.
H - Hanrick.
I - Ivan.
J - Jonathan.
K - Keith.
L - Lynette.
M - Marcia
N - Nicole.
O - Ong.
P - Pei Wun.
Q - Queenie.
R - Ryota.
S - Samantha Sito.
T - Tata.
U - who's name in malaysia starts with bloody U !!
V - Vina.
W - Wai Kin.
X - Xin Yi.
Y - Yoong.
Z - Zara.

Finally. ;p

1. What does A sms you about?
His Boxers !! muahahaha. still with me. ;p

2. How many siblings does B have?
hahaha mana tahu la mamak tuuu. ;p

3. What is C's nickname?
BLUR GIRL !!! ;p

4. How do you get to know D?
Cell. :)

5. How desperate is E?
Emooooo. :P

6. How much is F older/younger then you?
Few months ?

7. Name of G's best friend?
Er, how do i know !!!

8. Does H knows I?
hahah yesh. too close. ;p

9. What happens if J becomes your enemy?
Jonathan ??? I dont think that will happen.

10. Under what conditions will K & L get married?
Haaha... Age ????

11. How many ppl do you know wif M's initial?
Mana i tau.

12. Do you enjoy talking on the phone wif N?
Nicole - We never did.

13. Do you think O knows P?
I dont think sooo.

14. How geeky is Q?
hahaha ask tata.

15. Is R very popular?
mana tau. kata dia popular kat tmpt dia. mcm biasa jeeee.

16. What happens if S likes you?
Sito ??? hahahaha ... would be nice . ;p

17. Is T a very random person?
Hahaaha... Not very... more like master.

18. How are U and V related?
U ??? V and i are camp frens.

19. Do you take W as anything else other than a friend?
Yeah . we are brothers.

20. When is the last time u met up with X?
X - Ages ago.

21. Are Y & Z enemies?
NO. but it would be funny. ;p

22. Of everyone from A - Z, who do you love the most?
haiz . Sito blocked me name. i would love s if it was my name . ;p

23. Will you betray any of them?
Hell NOOO !!!.

24. Have you confessed to anyone from A - Z?

25. Pass it to the peeps from A- Z who have blogs.
hahahah just read it from here laaa.. mana ada masa to go blog and tell you... sial.



Simone Simons

hey guys, sorry bout the recent post .
i don;t really have the time to update my blog.
hahhaa you know... trials kan ???
anyways i found a new hott celeb that im totally into now...
hahah she some vocalist for some symphonic-metal band,EPICA...
hahah she sounds damm sweet.
and she is HOTTT !!!
i repeat HOTT !!
i have a thing for those red heads.

here's the video for the band.
u vocal freaks out there should really hear this is...
singing alone of cause. PS the video suck. the only nice thing tht she was in it.



random is the perfect word.

The picture posted here has 2 identical dolphins in it. It was used in a case study on stress levels at Loma Linda Medical Center.

Look at both dolphins jumping out of the water. The dolphins are identical. A closely monitored, scientific study of a group revealed that in spite of the fact that the dolphins are identical, a person under stress would find differences in the two dolphins. The number of differences observed matches closely to the amount of stress the observer is experiencing.

Look at the photograph and if you find more than one or two differences you may be experiencing stress.

haha i found this on
random gile bapa dia.



twilight. Muhahahaha

this is sooo funny !!!



just for laughs.

i find it very cute.




The last person to tag you is?

What relationship of you with him/her?
Fun Boy and Boring Girl. ;p

Your 5 impressions towards him/her?
Cowgirl . Blur . Specs . dunnoe. BORING . ;p

The most memorable thing that he/she has done to you.
ahhh post on my facebook wall make it less boring

The most memorable words that he/she has said to you.
' peace ? ' hhaaha

If he/she becomes your lover, you will?
haha... i dunno ... it would be funny i guess.. ask her ;p

If he/she becomes your enemy, you will?
it would be funny TOO. ;p

If he/she becomes your lover, he/she has to improve on?
stay back after church . ;p

If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason is....
for a being such a holy guy ??? ;p

The most desirable thing to do for him/her is?
er/// i have no idea. ;p

The overall impression to he/her is..

How do you think the people around you will feel about you?
u ask them

The character for you for yourself is?
er ? figther !

On contrary, the character you hate of youself is?

The most ideal person you want to be is?
its up to destiny.

For the person who cares and likes you, say something about them
er ? revealed yourself ?

Ten people to tag:
samsito. ;p

Who is number 2 having relationship with?
er ? female chicken.

Is number 3 a male or female?

If number 7 and number 10 be together would it be a good thing?
oppps . sum1 will be maddd...

How about number 5 and number 8?
hootttt. ;p

What is number 1 studying about?
PMR, i've already live trough that agony already . ;p muahhahaha

When was the last time you had a chat with them?
5 is been misssing for a very long time now... 8 well last sat/

Is number 4 a single?
no idea

Say something about number 2.



The Prep.

hey guys, whats up ???
leave smth on my cbox laaa...
it seems stagnant over there...
hahah SPM trials are in like what ???
3 days ...
wanna know how we ST JOHN'S very talented Johannians prep up for the big day ???

first and foremost.
COLORING !!! we even misspell pretty ..
how clever ???

More coloring !!! muahahha...
the upcoming horror movie. RICH AND FAMOUS !!!
More COLORING !!!!
u have to admit... this look actually NOTT BADD.
u see this sexy retarded robot has a POKEBALL PIMPLE and a SelfMade Scar...
hahah... the mike is sooo tempting.

and then theres a bunch of us...
infront of a liquor store that hoping one day we all be big enough to go in...
* FAKE IC* ring a bell ??? dumb dumb...

convinced ??? that we JOHANNIANS ??
angel's of kuala lumpur.
sigining off. ScreamingShou



Summer Hair = Forever Young

The Academy is...'s new song !!!
Summer Hair = Forever Young



anti war.

the world is on your hands people.

stop fighting and start healing.

love, people... LOVE



Meaning .:. TeddyPicker

The song refers to the popularity of celebrities. A 'teddy picker' is British slang for a crane machine, a popular machine at carnivals where prizes, particularly stuffed animals, are picked by a mechanical crane. The song equates a person getting noticed as a celebrity with a prize being picked up by a crane-a result of luck. The song expresses annoyance with people who are so desperate to be famous that they do over-the-top things to get attention, such as participate in reality shows. Such occurrences of reality show 'stars' being treated as real celebrities are especially prevalent in the UK, the home of Arctic Monkeys, where the show Big Brother has spawned such national icons as Jade Goody. The line "don't be surprised when you get bent over" refers to the amount of celebrities or media darlings that are tricked or persuaded by the industry to continue their attention seeking by promises of fame or money.

i'm meaningful . ;p



the past.

had gathering at my cousin's place...
dear old jian jian is goin to UK for studies..
my mom and had a couple of drinks...
well actually alot of drinks...
but still was nice you know drinking with your mom...
then my dad comes up and shows everybody some old video tapes ....
hahaha ...
i tell you it was the best thing ever !!!
it was like when i was 1-3 year old...
all the tapes were soo sweet...
haha i had a tail behind my hair last time...
hahah i had nice hair since last time...
wow.. no wonder...
my cousin hair were so geeky...
i mean at the time it was cool..
but i mean i was having the 21st century hair at time already !!!
how cool is that !!!!
ohh and the sweetest of them all...
was my parents wedding..
even tough my mom wasnt Christian at time...
they had a buddist wedding thingi in suits and gaunt...
but my mom and my dad....
they smile trough out the wedding...
and the way they look at each other in the eye is just so...
i knew at that time they never doubted each other...
both of them knowing...
that they were meant for each other...
arhhh~ i really hope one day be like them...
being sure that my future XXX is right one ...

ohhh another thing...
in the video i was playing with my dad some rambo thingi...
and it was embrassing...
but then...
the video caught my dad alone...
doing some kungfu kicks!!!
and he was like doing that shouting thingi when he start kicking...
hahahah DAMM FUNNNY...
everybody laugh at him !!!

me and my 2nd brother...
hahah i love the HAT !!!



the 1st batch.

ohh crap bad news ....
i may not go to NS...
ohhh shit...
my mom says that if the goverment puts me the 2nd or 3rd batch..
is a no go...
ohh CRAPPP!!!!
i wanna go laa....
you people better put me on the 1st batch list or i'll start an anarchy at town !!!
ish ish~
i really wanna go...
i wanna be ZOHAN =)))
other that old woman part...




the friend and the girl. =(

I'll be lying if i say I'm happy...




I seem to sink into the sound of the falling rain.
This promise is whose dream, who is this dream for?

I want to see all of you. I want to love all of you.
It's this way, isn't it?

When our hands are clutched together,
There is this unknown scent coming from the opposite one.
Although I can breathe normally, I seem to crumble eventually.
If you could love me deeper than just those words
I could believe only you standing before me.
In the suddenly showing past, the times we would touch,
Could not fill the fragile emptiness, floating on those tears.

Although I find comfort in this peace,
You, who are beside me, are breaking from my inside.

I want to see all of you. I want to love all of you.
The answer is drowning in a smile.
You don't love the everyday shadow, when it was lost.
We carry those bounds that I can't let disappear.

Even though I threw those words at you, if you could love me
I could believe only you, standing before me.
The suddenly shown past, hurts every time you touch me
I want to love you to my inner emptiness.
Because I won't let you notice how I wipe my tears
There is nothing else to laugh about in front of me.

It's not the two of us, concealing this means the good bye
How I wish it to be us together crying at this farewell
More than thinking back about it, I would like you to forget
And put me in this empty space.
Don't chase those long passed days.

Don't leave anything more than what's already left.
At least…
I hold onto this good bye, as I fall asleep
And the faint heat vanishes like tobacco.

The days that won't return, the person I loved

the meaning of the song CALM ENVY by GAZETTE....


i wrote this. translate.

나는 거리의 맞은편에 당신을 보았다
당신은 온아하게 무용하고 있었다
그 매끄러운 흑발
그리고 매혹적인 파란 눈
저 매 시간 나의 발 떨어져 저를 두드린다
당신이 말할 때마다
나가 다른 것을 말하고 있었다 처럼 이다
아름다운 무언가

나가 원하는 모두는 당신이었다
나는 시에 아무 좋도도 없고 또는 위로 일렬로 세운다 쑤신다
그러나 나는 십년간과 세기까지 이용된 선을 알고 있다
전통 무언가
그러나 강하고 강력한 무언가
이렇게, XXX 나가 말하고 싶은 모두




ring a bell ?.







time to pay the debts . =) .

Rules: The tag victim has to come up with 8 different points about his/her perfect lover. Have to mention the gender of his/her perfect lover. Tag eight other victims to join this game and leave a comment on their blog. If you are tagged the second time, there is NO need to do this again. Lastly, and most importantly, HAVE FUN DOING IT.

It's a She. Ever mention i like it SIMPLE ???

1) to be herself.

2) loyal.

3) to always calls me when she is in need.

4) open up herself towards me. [ no shy shy.. ]

5) clumsiness. [ in need of laughter =P ]

6) stupidity . [ i find it cute ]

7) love me for who i am .

8) knows or have interest in korean language. [ i find the language very... sexy...]

well thats bout it...
never thought much bout the points and the blah blah i would love to have in a girl...
i just believe...
when its time ...
its time...
theres no rush ...
or no specific points that i want to have in my future mate...
i just wanna love her the way she is...
and she to love me for who i am ....

A simpler place, where love was defined in simpler ways. One plus one equals two. . .

i tag ... everyone who believes in love.




arhh.. PHOBIA...
hahaha made it up myself mainly...
im afraid of ice skating !!!!
not only afraid... I HATE ICE-SKATING
So, not to everyone out there if you ajak me go ice-skating i'm gonna flip you off...
no matter who you are....
serious, im NOT KIDDING. =(if you ask me to picture hell...
this photo is definitely my answer....

ohhh i ate wendy's today...
beh bai...



the professionals

well i never did ...
but after today ...


due to my dumbness...

whoo~ FIXED.

whooo~ i'm lovin' it...



kebodohan leads to kekesalan...

Ahh... the dumbness of me...
wanted to do lines end up with a big patch gone man missing...
ahhhh ini lahh dipanggil kebodohan....




take the hit.

It tends to come to you no matter how you avoid it...
You can try running , hiding or even lying...
but its comes to the end that it will hit you...
and the more you run , hide or lie...
the more pain will be inflicted to you...
be the bigger man...
Screw the pussies and fags that think violence is the solution..
Real Men uses their head ... and not their fist...
Real Men are does that could TAKE THE HIT !!!!



Twilght. XDD.



Taking the OATH

One of main struggles i face in life...
is not the passion that is the problem...
but just merely finding it...
is near to 17 years i have live in this world...
yet i've fail to find what my passion is...
always having the tidak-apa attitude not knowing the damage i brought to myself...

i always tell myself to always do something i like...
but what do i like ???
what am i good at ???
what is my path ???

is guess is about time..
after 17 years of laid-back attitude ..
i think is time to step on the pedal and speed up...
to fill the hunger in me..
for i've starved for far too long...
is time for me go...
in search of my path...
in search of my passion...
in search of my destiny...

So, go ME ...
start your JOURNEY!!!!





the fadings.