try imagine life without this...
treasure it...



Tagging. Its fun...

1. Who are you?


2. Who is more important to you?


3. How often do you think of committing suicide?

hahaha... funny lahhh.

4. Do you think you have enough confidence?

Boleh2.... haha...

5. How many babies you want?

3... 2 boys 1 girl

6. Do you believe in seeing a rainbow after the rain?

what if i say... NOOO!!!

7. What is your goal for this year ?

Muay Thai...

Rugby... ( already done)

8. Do you believe in eternity love?

Yeah... =)

9. What's a perfect boyfriend like to you?

Huh ? im NOT GAY!!

10. What feeling do you love most?

Being around happiness..

11. What are the requirements you wish from the other half?

Speak more than 3 language..

12. Is there anything you wanna tell the people you hate ?

I love you ?

14. What does flying means to you?


15. What do you crave for the most currently?


16. Who's hotter?Chace Crawford or Kevin Peake?


haha im NOT GAY !!!

17. Describe the person who tagged you in 5 words.

gigi besi.
sooner or later taller than the sister.

Peeps, keep your heads up. I'm gonna shoot you. :P

Amir Sadollah




Details in the Fabric.

Calm down
Deep breaths
And get yourself dressed instead
Of running around
And pulling all your threads and
Breaking yourself up

If it's a broken part, replace it
But, if it's a broken arm then brace it
If it's a broken heart then face it

And hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
Hold your own
Know your own name
And go your own way

And everything will be fine
Everything will be fine

Hang on
Help is on the way
Stay strong
I'm doing everything

Hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way
Hold your own
Know your name
And go your own way

And everything, everything will be fine

Are the details in the fabric
Are the things that make you panic
Are your thoughts results of static cling?

Are the things that make you blow
Hell, no reason, go on and scream
If you're shocked it's just the fault
Of faulty manufacturing.

Yeah everything will be fine
Everything in no time at all

Hold your own
And know your name
And go your own way

Are the details in the fabric (Hold your own, know your name)
Are the things that make you panic
Are your thoughts results of static cling? (Go your own way)

Are the details in the fabric (Hold your own, know your name)
Are the things that make you panic (Go your own way)
Is it Mother Nature's sewing machine?

Are the things that make you blow (Hold your own, know your name)
Hell no reason go on and scream
If you’re shocked it's just the fault (Go your own way)
Of faulty manufacturing

Everything will be fine
Everything in no time at all
Hearts will hold



Running back in time.

hey, thought of just updating my life a little.

anyways, i,ve been feeling happy !!!
i've officially finished 7 papers of SPM !!!
only two more to goo...
can yhou believe my last day of exams is DEC 1...
and i will not be having exams for the next 10 days....
how dumb.... could they just make the exams on this week ???
make my life easier...

other than that, i just got a call from me dad... hahaa
he says that i can goo...
for the rugby...
probably starting next month...
every tues and thurs...
i've have no idea how to go there.
freaking far...
but yeah... im sooo up for it !!!

i got bashed...
birthday bashed...
there like red marks behind me back...
arhhh freaking stingsssss...
i bet they must be alot haters...
but yeah guys, thanks for the bash...
love it...

thats about all...
wow, is pretty sad...
i used to be more funnn....
maybe, after DEC 1...



14+11+91 = 17.

a year older.
thanks for the wishes, guys.
love ya !



DEAR, ;)))))))

Dear (the last person who left a comment on your blog).

I don't really know how to tell you this, but ___1___.I think I realized it when ___2______3___ and I saw you ___4___ ___5___. I'm sure you're ___6___ enough to understand ___7___. I'm returning ___8___ to you, but I'll keep ___9___ as a memory. You should also know that I ___10___ ___11___.___12___.
-Your name-

P/S: You are so lifeless, ___13___, -The name of the person that tagged you-.

1. What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I'll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn't match
Grey - You're a pervert
Yellow - I'm selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You're a loser
Other - I'm in love with your sister

2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December - When I changed tennis shoes

3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kebab - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women's clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
None of the above - With George Bush and his wife

4. What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit on
Other - Drive out

5. What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflé
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My penpal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy-statue
Other - The crazy monk

6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs - Man
O.C. - Emotional
One Tree Hill - Open
Heroes - Frostbitten
Lost - Scarred
Simpsons - Cowardly
The news - Mongolic
American Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Senile
Top Model - Middle-class
None of the above - Ashamed

7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful I've felt
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - Santa doesn't exist
Angry - That yThat Sour pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we're cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this
Nervous - The middle-east
Worried - That your Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex-change
Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Overjoyous - That I'm open
Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks

8. What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your ring
Yellow - Your love letters
Red - Your Darth Vader
Black - Your tame stone
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures from LA
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your contact book
Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs
Purple - Your old lottery coupons
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your memories from the military service

9. The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your photo
C/D - The oil stocks
E/F - Your neighbour Martin
G/H - My virginity
I/J - The results of your blood-sample
K/L - Your left ear
M/N - Your suicide note
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X - David's tricot outfits
Y/Z - Your grades from college

10. The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Always will remember
C/D - Never will forget
E/F - Always wanted to break
G/H - Never openly mocked
I/J - Always have felt dirty before
K/L - Will tell the authorities about
M/N - Told in my confession today about
O/P - Was interviewed by the Times about
Q/R - Told my psychiatrist about
S/T - Get sick when I think of
U/V - Always will try to forget
W/X - Am better off without
Y/Z - Never liked

11. What do you prefer to drink?
Water- Our friendship
Beer - Senility
Soft drink - A new life as a clone
Soda - The incarnation as an eskimo
Milk - The apartment building
Wine - Cocaine abuse
Cider - A passionate interest for mice
Juice - Oprah Winfrey imitations
Mineral water - Embarrassing rash
Hot chocolate - Eggplant-fetishism
Whisky - To ruin the second world war
Other - To hate the Boston Celtics

12. To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand - Warm regards
USA - Best regards
England - Good luck on your short-term leave from jail
Spain - Go and drown yourself
China - Disgusting regards
Germany - With ease
Japan - Go burn
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
Australia - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt - Fuck off now
France - In pain
Other - Greetings to your freaky family

13. What is your favorite activities when hanging out with mates?
Gathering for drinks - Ugly pig
Foosball - Silly duck
Shopping - French kisser
Dulging for food - Cranky banana
Movies - Smelly armpits
Snacks - Horny wolf
Snooker - Tiny nipples
Bowling - Sexy grandmother
Outdoor activities - Vain pot
Having a long talk - Nose plucker
Taking pictures - Dumb bitch
Other - Burn yourself

I don't really know how to tell you this, but I'll join the monastery. I think I realized it on the When your dog ran amok With George Bush and his wife, and I saw you sit on my father.I'm sure you're Open enough to understand That santa doesnt exist. I'm returning the pictures from LA to you, but I'll keep Your collection of butterflies as a memory. You should also know that I was Always have felt dirty before about oprah winfrey imitations . . Good luck on your short-term leave from jail

P/S: You are so lifeless, nose plucker,samantha sito...

haha it is funny....

i tagg...


Bittersweet Ending.

the end of my freaking high school days.

i never had the VI vs Johannian thingi is my mind...
after 5 years i don't know why we all are doing this.
i may not have that...
but i wake up every morning, well not every morning.
i open my eyes im going to stjohns.
hahah not for studies....
haha but for you crazy lil ass.
my classmates from 5k this post is dedicated to you people.

  1. Abdullah Nizar - The next pm of freaking Malaysia... I remember the times where you skipped class with me, talk crap in class with me.... everything man... i hope... i know you will have a bright future...
  2. Ahmad Nadhir- White boy a.k.a Nasi Lemak + French Fries .... Haha I will remember you... the times... we skipped school and end up in Tata's house.... will remember the craziness and funn times we had... Nevertheless, bring the white boy spirit in you out.... hahah GOOD LUCK...
  3. Arizan-Homie, i love you. we argue sometimes.. hahah but it always the small things. like your calculator, the mopped floor... hahaha but yeah man ... you've been a wonderfull friend. im sorry for all the things ive done wrong. maybe sometime in the future we argue again yeah ?.
  4. Bakrul Ameen- Black Hyena. I had alooottt of crazy times with together.... and i will remember it... the times in ANNEXE the free drinks... the times where you kicked my ass in PES 09.... the times where we make funnn of other people... the times we shoot each other with toy gun in the class like hooligans... the times were great... and it will be better .... no matter where we end up... Good Luck !!!
  5. Clement Soong - so lou shuffler. haha man i knew you from the start.... hahah you've been great. with all the crazy stuff we did. skipping school, arguing among each other... i willl definitely remember the time that i made you cry... haha sorry la... it was just a joke... Anyways good luck in the future.... WORK FOR IT.
  6. David Heng - The self proclaim CUBER. hahah man you been amzing trough out the years. Im sorry of all the stuff that i lost... like your cable...hahah sorry. you been amazingly blur but not as blur as blur. hahah anyways, you dont need luck... all the best CUBER. go beat the record.
  7. Fawwaz Marzuq - Bajet Rambut Jay Chou. hahah man... i love you too. i will remember the time tht i fool you saying that this form 6 girl was my sis for 6 months, my leg tattoo that was proclaim permenant, and i was korean for a whole freaking year... HAHHAHA... dont worry its all under the name FUNNN !!! haha good luck... ROCK ON !!!
  8. Ikhwan - Bambang. sorry lah every time i call your father's name... terbiasa babe.hahaha 'my gay partner'.. i will remember the times that you almost kiss me, the times you almost rape me hahha... you will rock... just dont be a pimp man... i swear... i'll kill you... haha GOOD LUCK GAY BOY 101.
  9. Irfan - Phan... hahaha KAMBATE KAMBATE KOARA !!! hahaha thank you ... for introducing to me one of the greatest sport on earth RUGBY...i will remember the times where played for the school... the 'medal' [notice no 's'] that we won.... i will remember the times we train... the times we showered !!! good luck... see you in the field next year ... promise to smash your head....
  10. Logesh - POWER !!! hahaha the bull of the class...maybe we can fight next time... professionally.... hahaha thanks for all the tips bout MMA ... you rock my socks off man... you always have a place in my heart. good luck.
  11. AXFA - blur no.2. hahha gile lah bang...hahah will remember the times that you took the ee cumings poem, the PES moment, the makaning moments and so many more... you've been more than a great classmate to me... i love you man.... good luck.
  12. Elmie- i didn't see you today... how could you ?! =( anyways... youve been marvellous trough the days in the LRT where we talk and talk and talk and talk...hahah we just love to talk eh ???? miss you ... youve been really trully a great asskicking fren...ahahha... GOOD LUCK....
  13. Midi- Emo Fans...hahhah i wanna say sorry for everything that ive done wrong... you maybe annoying sometimes... but yeah man... anyhow you've been a great fren tooo.. you will be someday the greatest rockstar ever live... btw... you have skills man... GOOD LUCK...
  14. Alif- the MALAY...ahaha all the racial slur... hahah i remember it... thanks for being there in class hyping up the motions... hahah thanks for the dramas and funnn you gave to the class... mayb someday you be an artist... i'll buy your album or talkshow... i promise ;p
  15. Armaan- Jambu / belon / market / james buuuu... haha i was on the phone with hazim just now... he gave me all that...hahah... anyways... we fight ... we argue... i found out that your emo as fob or some shitt like that... anyways... you still are my friend no matter what okay... ohhh, favour can u ask your uncle to put me in the 1st batch... im rushing in to college...hahha
  16. Amirul - Milo... hahah just because of your name you like to drink milo ??? bodoh sial... anyways haha the most lazy most cunning most retarded class monitor i ever had... hahaha cheers man... will remeber the football moments... the crazy class time... the crazy lunch ... buying gifts for the teachers... hahah is all good to treasure... hahah ... good luck !!
  17. Farhan... i wanna say sorry to you man... for these past 2 years.. i didnt talk to you alot.. i mean we do... but yeah... we just dont connect eh ??? anyways... hahaha you rock ... with the sej and bm... i promise if i see you on the streets i get you a drink ... non alcoholic ... dont worry . ;p . good luck.
  18. Hazim - damm man, i think your the closet in the class.... yeah you are actually... mayb is your friendly ass kick attitude... get it off im suppose to have it... ahhah anyways... this two years.... you've been more than a friend to me... a great friend.... dont think gayness okay ??? haha will remember the movies we watch [ of course, we watch with others oso ] , the times you whack for no freaking reason... we laughed , we eat, we talked, we played, we conquer death together [ bakrul's car]. we your sepet tease towards me everytime... i only can wish you the best of luck... and mayb your eyes we go small evry time you age !!! hahah see you around... i know we will. GOOD LUCK !!!
  19. Izzat- ahhhh, you better be in the same freaking college with me eh !!! i will screw you upsidedown if you arent !!!hahaha anyways, youve been marvelous. your kind. your stylish. your freindly. and you have a big heart. you are one of the closet i hang with too... you rock and you always will !!! i love you... haha dont get it wrong... hahaha GOOD LUCK !!!!
  20. Raja - Raja yg x aci. sial lahhh you tiap2 hari ponteng je tau... nk lepak puunnn x boleh... hahha apa2 kita kawan... u rock... hahaha next ade mas bwk lahhh i riding sikit... i punnn nk belajar.... siall.... good luck weh !!!!
  21. H***** - H . hahah i follow the rule... haha no full name for you... haha dont worry i won't forget... hahaha blur ass you've been the crazy blur ass ever with all you bong thingi... hahha... we had times that no will ever have... hahaha ... see ya around in hartamas next time !!! kiss my arse !!!
  22. Nicholas - Phili... watch me screw you up.... ehhh, you ni chunnn lahhh. i skn igt semua hal2 kita buat sama2. makan BBQ. makan mee LEMBU. i akn igt u dlm hati dgn teriklhas... hahaha love you man you rock ! wanna noe what was that man, go learn some freaking BM for once. ;p
  23. Nik- haha scene kid ! haahaha ;p. anyways you rock tooo. the times we crap like shit bout some random stuffs. the times you asked random question as if it was the live tagging. hahaha. and the effing time you make me panic like shit... dude i swear my phone... crap ... dammm you lahhhhhhhhhhhhh... ;p ... good luck !!! all the best, retard....
  24. Siddhi - CD/DVD. Man, all i can say about you is... ROCK ON !!! you've been one of the best indian friends that i ever had... hahah... will remeber the RAMEN bands that you freakinglishly like. or should i say love !!! hahah enjoying the music... anyways, good luck !!! you rock man... '
  25. Shou-yi, the best. ;p
  26. Tengku Harezzzzz... SASAU je tau... haha man you and your slipknot craze... hahah love your ass to death... the rugby times... the song times... the akward jamming sessions.... the crazy combos that you and nik have... will be deeply sole in my heart... You rock man...try living a sober life...hahah .,.. good luck in that !!!
  27. Zain Indra Kesuma - INDON ... hahah rilek wehhh, you mmg kwn yg baik... lahhh klu next time mmg xleh jmpa lagi... i akn miss u kau kau... dgn pagi/ptg uuu. dgn prgi yg gile tuuuu. dgn bajet joe jonas tuuu... mmg lahhh i rindu... apa2 kita kwn di hati... good luck !!!

27 of us...
1 family...
my family...
you guys will be rmbred...
forever and always.'



Filling it up.

' Cal, its been 3 years since that happen. Why... No, What can i do to make you forget it ???' , Star said.

Cal looked into her eyes and with a calm cold voice said ' Don't bother, its already tattooed it my head, F*ck off Star'

' Your an ass, Cal. '

Star wiped her tears and rushed out the room.
And whats left of the old room was him and his ready to go boxes.

Silence broke, John came rushing in.

'Dude, you ticked her real bad this time man.'
'You mofo, you know why i had to do this.'
' To do what ? Break her heart ?'
' I thought I explained it to you already. So, if your here for another fresh recap. Well you can F off cause I ain't in the mood.'

John looked at Cal.
He shook his head and continue saying, ' You know what, Star was right. Your an ass. A real big one. The worst part is, she still loves you..'

John slammed the door on his way out.
Leaving Cal and his boxes once again in silence.

Tears slowing ran down his face.
And said softly to himself.

'I love you too...'



3, 2, 1, Go ?

the drive is not kicked in yet...

its near...
but i don't feel it...

“There is no such thing as bravery; only degrees of fear.” John Wainwright