Addiction to Anger.

status : Angry
reason: none




~SOUR TIMES~

maybe and just maybe.

Question, what would you do ?

Imagine your lives in a shoes of a beautiful lady.
one day, you were rushing back home. it was late. you passed through the alley. dark alley.
and 6 evil looking men were staring at us with eyes that made your body shiver.
they approached you. you ran. they surrounded you.
they stripped down all your clothes and then rapes you in the middle of the cold night.

enough with all the details.
you were depressed and hurt.
you have no family, no friends. alone and hurt.
no one to talk to.
no one to laugh or even cry.
alone and all alone.

suddenly you have headaches and nausea.
you vomit every single morning.
the test came to you.
And only you've really realize that the nightmare has just begun.

inside of you...
a 'raped child'
a child had been created instead of love and passion but was created by full of unfulfilled sexual desires and immorality .

but inside of you...
still lies...
a 'child'
a child that had never lied, never hurt, that never swear, that never sinned.

Question, what would we do?
a choice to make.




i had this question in my mind while i was watching tv.
what would 9/10 of the world do ?

because what i feel, its not really what you or i think that is important.
its really what we think that is important ..

get what i'm trying to say here ?


~TASTELESS~

feelings.

exhausted.


why did i choose do be who i am now ???




~SWEET TIMES~

英雄总是 孤独

i failed my undang by just a mark...
talk about bad luck.

英雄总是孤独



~SOUR TIMES~

last minute.

its been awhile now..
haha...
i just remembered how last minute study suck !!!
but i'm pretty okay with undang now.
i'm confident.
its 4.52 a.m should i sleep ?
my exams at 8.
i need to leave by 7.


pressure ?
haha... you joking ?




~SOUR TIMES~

疯狂

想搜集夏天的热
穿越叫幸福的河
想做吞大象的蛇
不自量力说真的又有何不可
≮我想写歌≯
当天是空的 地是干的
我要为妳倒进狂热
让妳疯狂让妳渴
让全世界知道妳是我的
天气疯了 海水滚了
所以我要无乐不作
不要浪费每一刻快乐
当梦的天行者

像妳这样的天使
该有翅膀和名字
该美丽中带着刺
该很认真的属于我一次
当天是空的 地是干的
我要为妳倒进狂热
让妳疯狂 让妳渴
让全世界知道妳是我的
天气疯了 海水滚了
所以我要无乐不作
不要浪费每一刻快乐
当梦的天行者
当天是空的 地是干的
我要为妳倒进狂热
让妳疯狂 让妳渴
让全世界知道妳是我的
世界末日就尽管来吧
我会继续无乐不作
不会浪费爱妳的快乐

当梦的天行者 要快乐

feeling PUMPED !!!




~SWEET TIMES~

everything is not a easy ...

Cause You're My Everything
就一個原因 讓我勇敢面對這個世界
想給你 Everything
不管用多少個明天 永遠從此刻開始算起
你的愛是我的 Everything

is it that simple ???
to give someone your everything ???
sorry, i just find it hard to believe...
that someone would sacrifice everything for another person...



haha... i find myself very emoish these few days...
maybe is the boredom...




~SOUR TIMES~

imperfection.

what am i lacking of ???

~SWEET TIMES~

搞笑

Dear Shou,


This is the second letter i'm writing to you. People look to you and all will say... ' Shou ! You know what ? Your really a nice guy....'

You never fail to put a smile on people's face.
They love having you around... Your fun, exciting and not boring.

I'm not saying is a bad thing. I mean you really really really great friends... They are really really true to you...

Being funny and nice... no one ever knew the other side of you...

Through most peoples eyes... you are never serious ... you are too cin cai... you are slumber... never sad... never angry... never hurt... never jealous...

But yet, after most of the fun days you still crawl back to the four walls... looking at the mirror... and for no reason just by looking at yourself... you feel stupid... you feel your useless... nothing but rubbish...

for being yourself. for being 搞笑... you lost someone you really loved... you lost the respect of other people... you lost the seriousness in people towards you...

Now, isn't that screwed up ? fat boy...

Show your seriousness !!! show that you can do more than just 搞笑... show more of the true you...
show whats in there...
show that your something more...

And maybe... just maybe... you may find this life better and when you look at the mirror...
you can say that WE ARE GOOD FOR SOMETHING...




那一條牙膏 在對我傻笑 嘲笑我永遠用不掉
想睡就睡 想鬧就鬧 好快樂少了人嘮叨
藍色的碗盤 多買了一套
我忘了沒人陪我通宵
要多少替代的丑角 無辜的陪笑
才會讓我能真的忘了你的好

我在搞笑 借著熱鬧 掩蓋著心跳
邊哭邊笑 偏要說著 一個人真好
當人群散了 突然覺得我可以死掉 我受不了

還在搞笑 害怕回家 不知怎麼熬
這麼多年 早就喜歡 有你的撒嬌
我想我能熬 但是至少要讓我知道 你好不好

我們的小狗 食量變好小 眼神裡常常顯得無聊
它習慣睡覺的床尾 少了一雙腳
所以他常常看著門口睡不著

我在搞笑 借著熱鬧 掩蓋著心跳
邊哭邊笑 偏要說著 一個人真好
當人群散了 突然覺得我可以死掉 我受不了

我在搞笑 卻在最后 眼淚拼命掉
你的離開 失去多少 我計算不了
忙完了一天 突然覺得又何必辛勞 對誰炫耀

還在搞笑 是否擁有 麻痺的療效
唱一夜歌 卻避不開 催淚的曲調
我徹夜胡鬧 希望聽到有人會提到 你好不好

~SWEET TIMES~

Love, Shou Yi... =)

waiting...

just too many things...
yet i am still waiting...
waiting...





~SOUR TIMES~

slip inside the eye of your mind...

missing...
my brother.



~SOUR TIMES~

tommorow never comes.

New Life

by Paul Bodet

I've been sitting around this life for years, Not enough laughs and too many tears. Trying to figure out where it all went, These wasted years that I have spent. Searching for something to go beyond, Life's a stone skipping across a pond. At the last skip, it hits with a splash, Down the stone sinks, gone in a flash. Pushing and pulling, it's tearing apart, Poking and prodding an underused heart. This dark velvet curtain that hides my soul, Living this life has taken it's toll. In a flash of bright light, the curtain is torn, Tumbling down all tattered and worn. Revealing new life, a child within, Born free of hate, of suffering and sin. Now my eyes see what has never been told, Striving forth happy, confident and bold. Into a world that's unfamiliar but friendly, Into this new life my spirit will send me. Living and laughing, loving it all, I stood myself up and answered the call. The darkness has gone, replaced by the light, I gave up the darkness with hardly a fight. I've been sitting around this life for years, With laughter aplenty and hardly a tear. Now I can see just where it all went, Cherish every moment of this new life I've spent ~SWEET TIMES~ .